February 2012
2 posts
she won’t see the way your eyes, light up when you smile…
today i thought of you again. i don’t think ill ever stop thinking about you.
January 2012
1 post
i think my roommate hates me. its ok. its just normal for people to hate me nowadays…jk.
i had panda express tonight. it was yummy. it also added to my obsessions to all things panda.
i have an 8am tomorrow. sucky. i miss you.
adios till later <3. much love to my wifity wife!
November 2011
1 post
ah another dream, another day. except this time after a competition, you decided to make the first move. ha. like that would ever happen in real life. oh well. it was nice while it lasted. you go on being that korean popstar.
October 2011
1 post
Dreams
I had a dream about you last night and now know why you said no. Its because you wanted to ask her to dance. Its a good thing that in my dream i was pushing you to ask her cause I realize that i want you to be happy even though it hurts me for you to be happy. Hope you have fun.
September 2011
2 posts
i really miss you.
Its like you’re pouring salt on my cuts. Oh still thought this would end differently. You’re still not here and now all i can think about is what if you said yes instead of no. Why did you shy away from me. Cause believe it or not, i still wanted to be your friend if nothing more. Are you afraid to getting close to anyone?
May 2011
2 posts
what happened? somehow i saw this ending differently… instead of staring you down lets not ‘cause this ‘secret’ we share is pulling us apart…cause i believe in magic, second chances, and forgiveness… ttyl. hopefully.
Sometimes i wonder, how it would be different, because we existed but theres no proof anywhere…counting down the days until you realize.
September 2010
1 post
Ever feel like time is slipping right out of your hands? I feel like the weekend ended before it started, and its only friday. And all i can think about is school, school, college, satii’s, and more school. Sigh.
August 2010
1 post
Time
It seems life is passing by so quickly. 27 days until i turn 17, 34 days until senior year starts, 124 days until i apply for college, 214 days until i accept a college, 270 days until i leave highschool. wow.
February 2010
1 post
“cause there is no guarantee, that this life is easy, yeah my world is falling...”
– *Miley Cyrus “When I look at you”
January 2010
5 posts
hmm, today was interesting. learning how to drive for my hours the 27th of january, yikes! ahh
i got to learn sometime…
thoughts
“im tired of trying to pretend im happy? like i really dont care that you ignore me…”
hmmm. wow havent felt this way in a while, datemarked the 11th of august, fun times, summer ‘09 will be remembered as the one before colleges were THAT important, the last real summer to just kid around and be carefree. yesterday i was thinking of my past, and how i came to be. my happy...
Hi world of tumblr :) havent seen you in a...
on with a quote?
“what i trusted you with, you gave away, and i can no longer give you the ability to help me figure out where i was last. am i just not important anymore? cause from where i am standing, the whole world seems to stop, i thought you remembered, but i guess all you could think of was her pretty face lost in shimmer.”
September 2009
1 post
August 2009
4 posts
July 2009
4 posts
“Everything becomes a little different as soon as it is spoken out loud.”
– Hermann Hesse (via littlemiss)
June 2009
25 posts
Demi Lovato - Here We Go Again - Music Video (HQ)... →
crushed:
Best friend,
You were so afraid to mess up a great friendship, that you wouldn’t let us think about being something more.
The irony? We don’t talk anymore, anyway.
— A best friend that misses you
liv3l0vel4ur:
crushed:
Stupid Boy,
why are we doing this to ourselves? you crave me, i want you. but we pretend otherwise, shake our heads and turn away, tell lies to make the other jealous. are we doomed to be stuck in this spiral forever? i have tried to tell you in all the words that i can. you don’t understand. you aren’t listening.
— Silly Girl
i now know that i made the right choice. and nothing will ever change the impression that you just made with me. you broke my heart all over again, and yet you will never realize this. i just realized i was being a stupid stupid girl for beginning to believe that it would ever happen. and all the secrets in my heart are bursting right now. and all the memories are breaking and hurting...
Goodbyes.
as i count the lucky blessings that fall out of my heart, i wonder why i did this to myself? why cant i keep quiet for once in my life? cause its broken me in half and the more i write the more upset i get..so i suppose no more writing, last post seems so sad, but writing and talking about it makes me remember. so, so long. goodbye, may you rest in pieces butterflycake.
Didn't.
didn’t you know? that you could have convinced me otherwise…didn’t you know? that i would have said yes…didn’t you know? that i was dying inside…didn’t you know? that you tore out my heart…didn’t you know? that i wasn’t ready..didn’t you know? that i was shaken..didn’t you know? that i lied…didn’t you know? that i...
Love.
why is it so hard to say? i like you. why dont we just talk? i like you. why cant we both admit it? i like you. Why is everything falling apart? i like you. why are we so nervous? i like you. wait scratch that. i love you. Why cant i exclaim it to the world? I LOVE YOU.
Speak.
Some things i cant say, cause they would tear out my heart. i know you say you knew me, but i don’t think you do anymore, because I’ve changed, and i think secretly you cant accept that, that we are falling apart, but not one of us will admit that, we both want different things, and yet we are so similar, i don’t understand why we are hiding everything, just speak.
End.
You want to know who doesn’t fit in? me…i keep trying to change that, but i know that im not smart enough, i try to act like someone you would like, but knowing who you like is causing unreadable data to show up, i can barely read it, and yet i push so hard to decifir it, it becomes harder and harder to push down and write, so i give up. it always ends this way.
Mixed.
i think i have mixed feelings about you, you are escaping my thoughts, my mind, my heart, or maybe you were never were in my head, i knew i felt it once, a very long time ago, and i cant help but wish that i had done something then, told you how i felt, so i would know how you felt. i want to know. not wonder.
Opposites
Blank. stares. yes. maybe. no. undecisive, unresponsive, untouched. fragile, shattered, broken into little pieces that are blowing away. happy. sad. love. hate. opposites can sometimes get in the way o things. you love someone you hate, you hate someone you love, your love revolves around mysteries, and maybe its your job to solve them
...
““we broke up and now im just waiting for you to wake up and realize that...”
– Maybe, Possibly!~~~Megan and Liz
KELLEY
liv3l0vel4ur:
Wanna know what’s creepy?
That song was just in my head.
No wayyyy!!! isnt it awesomeeeee!!!!!????
im in love with that songggg!!!
““Why we gotta fall for it now? i never meant to start war, you know i...”
– Battlefield~~Jordan Sparks
Decisions.
i dont want to go down the same path again because before it broke my heart, i lied, tried to make it easier for you to move on, while i was still crushed over the choice, i faked well and you bought it, and im still under decision. always been. always will.